Open Window

Wow... it is AMAZING to me... that just a few days after writing my very first blog post about embracing an imperfect life that I've been thrown a major curveball. Two curveballs actually! Let's go back, 24 hours ago.... (harp music plays as we flashback)

Yesterday morning (May 6, 2020). I wake up.... my chest is tight and hurting like it had been days before. I decide I'm going to go get tested for COVID-19. My symptoms could be a myriad of things, but since we ARE in the middle of pandemic I decided it's better to be safe than sorry. So I get ready for the day and hop online to message my boss that I will be offline for a couple hours and told her why. Minutes later she calls.... along with my boss's boss. LOL one part of me was like "Whoa! This escalated quickly! They really care!" (which they do!). They asked about my symptoms and going to get tested n such.... then after a brief pause I hear the "Well, there's no easy way to say this." haha. SO I knew immediately what that meant. 

Basically my company, just like many others right now, isn't doing so hot and they had to let go of a bunch of people and reduce a ton of hours. I work in Marketing as the Creative Director for this company, and unfortunately there's just not a lot of marketing and selling happening out there right now. So my hours have been drastically cut. From full time to 12 hours to be exact!! Y'ouch! This happened, mind you, as I was literally packing up to go get tested for the Coronavirus!! LOL oh man my life... 

I literally can't stop laughing about it and that may sound weird and so disconnected like I'm in denial, but honestly? I think something inside me was already preparing me for this. I mean I literally just wrote about embracing a Wabi Sabi lifestyle, where things are GOING to be imperfect. If you look up Wabi Sabi art, you'll commonly see a rustic pot that had a crack running through it that has been beautifully filled in with gold leafing. I imagine me as a a little rustic pot right now, except i'm currently laying on the floor still split apart. LOL haven't made it to the gold leafing part yet, BUT I'll get there! 

I'm very grateful to have so many people in my life that support me. Even sending me food and alcohol yesterday!! (That's my kinda people). They've also been offering comfort through words. One of the go-to's seems to be,

 When the Lord closes a door, somewhere he opens a window" Said in best Julie Andrews voice...

​This is what I picture when I hear that. ​😂😂😂
Except maybe more so thrown out than voluntarily jumping through...

 Haha oh man.... things are going to be OK though! I've already made a to-do list which helps me break things down so I don't get overwhelmed. I'm going to start cracking on that and just take it a day at a time! Should know my test results in a couple days, so I will just keep laying low till then. I don't feel defeated, I know this is the beginning of something new as well as the end of my current season and even home I'm in. It's definitely a weird combination to feel sad and excited at the same time, but that's where I'm at! 

​-E